ABHYASA: Empower, Evolve, Enlighten

What is abhyasa? The new concept coming to Liverpool Yoga Studios.  Abhyasa is a concept consisting of three sequences.  The term Abhyasa (pronounced ab-yA-sa) translates to ‘Practice’ and refers to a practice that aims at achieving a tranquil state of mind. Sage Patanjali, in his Yoga Sutras, explains the importance of abhyasa and vairagya (detachment/letting go) to achieving a yogic state of mind.  Abhyasa refers to a practice that is done consistently, with effort over a long period of time, with no expectation only consistent practice.  It is seen as one of the core principles of yoga, that allows for the realisation of true self.

As I move into my fourth year of teaching this year and reflect upon how yoga has enhanced my life and how I have seen students grow in their life, it is beyond magnificent to see what we both have achieved and what people are doing worldwide by stepping onto their mats every day.  When I thought about what stood out to me as a leading influence into my own and others growth, it was simple – PRACTICE, consistent practice.  This combined with observation and study of oneself, is where Abhyasa was born.

This concept can be applied to both spiritual and all your life practices.  We each have different reasons as to why we step on our mat, and flow through the movement that is asana practice.  Though at is very core, asanas / the physical practice of yoga was practiced to create space and mobility in your body to enable you to sit in meditation for a long period of time.  Over the years this physical practice has become popularised and became very dynamic.  We want to bring to you a disciplined, yet accessible practice.  When we think of the term discipline it can often be considered a harsh word though I invite you to think of it like this.  Think about brushing your teeth every single morning when you wake up, you wouldn’t dream of leaving the house/ starting your day with out brushing your teeth.  You do this because you know it maintains good oral health.  In the same way, a regular yoga practice done consistently and with the same effort will be done to maintain your overall, mental physical and spiritual well-being.  How your teeth will become cleaner each time you brush them, so your lungs, circulatory system, digestive system, thought process, body systems and soul will become cleaner each time you practice.

We have created an individualised practice, deeply rooted in the ancient teachings of Yoga with a sequence that though challenging can be adapted to all abilities and allows for room for growth.  The intention is to allow you to begin to feel what your body and mind are telling you, to use your breath to move through those feelings, to be with those feelings and allow tensions to begin to release, to evolve, to become empowered, to enlighten yourself!   Through true focus onto your breath and synchronisation with your movement, the practice encourages you to go completely within and become your own teacher.

Abhyasa is inclusive of three sequences, empower, evolve and enlighten.  Each of the three sequences compliment one another and will massively compliment all other yoga, fitness and lifestyle practices.  These sequences combined will work with all your body systems, providing you with a more efficient working body and a better quality of life.


Evolve: ‘to change or develop gradually’ Evolve is a deeply satisfying class, including both dynamic movement and yin inspired postures, to enable stress release and letting go.  Evolve wants you to move through the tensions in your body.  Lots of deep stretches and back opening postures. After the initial warm up evolve will be taught in a workshop style working with techniques of how to move into postures that may require a more in-depth explanation or different variations dependent upon experience. Break the posture to make the posture.

Empower : ‘make (someone) stronger and more confident, especially in controlling their life and claiming their rights’ Empower is a strength-based class, the physical focus will be onto building more strength in the body, whilst also building strength in our minds.  We will learn strength in our postures through proper use of muscle groups and control.  Our minds focus will enable us to build the strength required to maintain the postures.

Enlighten: ‘become enlightened’ The enlighten sequence is where it all comes together.  Enlightens focus is breath synchronised movement, concentration and focus.  A dynamic class based on building strength and flexibility in the body whilst also using the breath to maintain concentration, so it becomes a meditative movement that is healing our body from the inside out.  Enlighten is very much inspired by traditional yogic practices, it is disciplined taking you on a journey through movements on your mat, to bring a more enlightened state of being off your mat.

I am beyond excited to share this with you!


See you on the mat!

Beck xxx

To be a WOMAN

What does it mean to be a woman?
I have been thinking a lot of late, about being a woman.
A woman, it is a strange thing really, what fascinating creatures we are. I have never really felt that I fit the shoes of a woman, quite literally, I would much rather be bare foot. This does not mean to say I want to be a boy, though I have always envied them. It appears that their life comes with a lot less pressures (excuse the mild sexism – I really do not know how life is for a male).

For as long as I can remember, I have always felt a little off in a dress, though I have worn make up, I have never really understood how to apply it, or more so, where people learn to apply it – did I miss that lesson in school? I do not know what primer is used for and my eyebrows are most definitely never ‘on fleek’. I once dyed my hair blonde when I was 18, outside of that – I rarely visit the hairdressers and when I do – it is always a strange ordeal, it is like some sort of culture shock, where I have walked into this unknown country, everyone is speaking the native tongue of highlights, toners and styling. When I am around women I always start saying random sentences like, ‘oh my hair looks terrible’ or ‘I must get a facial’ – like I feel as though that’s what helps me to relate, it’s a bit like when you start using your school GCSE French, on a trip to Paris. You really are trying, but it is pretty obvious that you aren’t from round here.

Though I absolutely adore women, I have always felt more comfortable in male company. Right from when I was a little girl, I wanted to hang out with my brothers, play football and wear football kits, I didn’t understand why I had to go the female toilets and couldn’t just go with my Dad. I have never been on a ‘girls holiday’, but lots of ‘lads weekends’.  With men it just felt simple, less judgemental.

My friends and I at primary school started a movement to allow girls to wear pants to school. We started a petition. And much to my mother’s dismay – it was granted, and I wore long grey pants to school and played football without worrying about my knickers being on show.
I have been told a few times, that maybe I have some underlying issues with feminine energy and I should be more in touch with my feminine side, it did resonate with me a little – I have been reflecting on it.
When I thought about how I could be more in touch with my feminine energy, it got me thinking ‘What does it mean to be a woman?’
A girl said to me after class a couple of weeks ago ‘you have the body of a yoga goddess’ – ‘ A goddess’ I thought. ‘me? Beck? A goddess?’

I would never have considered myself as looking like a goddess, though what exactly does a goddess look like, what exactly does represent a woman? How does one ‘be more feminine’? It appears to me that on a large-scale femininity is measured in our image. With that it seems our looks are being adjusted to a perfectionist standard. What might we consider to be feminine? Big breasts, long hair, round bums? Big lips and long eye lashes, high cheek bones, long legs, small waists, sitting with crossed legs and never talking about bodily functions?
Then what must we do if we do not have these things? Invade our body with alien substances to meet the required specification? If our breasts are not large we should just make them bigger, right? Apply plastic eye lashes, and if you don’t have long hair? It is cool, somebody somewhere grew and sold hers so that you could have some. If your nails will not grow, not to worry – you can apply false ones, your bum isn’t big enough? Implants. You can contour your face if you do not have very high cheek bones, if the contouring gets to be too much though, you can just get fillers. Eyebrows not on fleek? Not to worry just get them tattooed. (must note I recently had my eyebrows microbladed – I know I scream hypocrite).

What it really got me thinking is, is this image of a woman artificial? Are we seeking womanhood or chasing an unattainable ideology of a woman created by the media? An image that will forever evolve, that will always be one step ahead.
Is this what makes you feminine, is this what makes you a woman?
Am I less of a woman because my breasts are my own? Am I less of a woman because I think skirts are unreasonable for sitting in a comfortable position? Am I less of a woman because I have scars on my face? Am I less of a woman because in spite of the many aliments and things I do on my body I do my upmost to just be that which I am, so that other women may feel empowered to also be all that which they are.

I recognise of course, truly ladies I do, that certain surgeries or adjustments to images can really give people a lot more confidence. And that is a beautiful thing, I recently had my brace taken off and I feel brand new and I am 100% in support of anybody doing as they please with their bodies. I am not against plastic surgeries, physical enhancements or looking good.  I do not want this to appear as a judgment unto any persons image.  I am envious of ladies who look 10/10 every day.  You should take pride in your appearance and dress yourself up if you feel too, just ask yourself are you just as happy with how you look when you strip it all down and your head hits the pillow at night?

The part that makes me sad is, why can we not be confident without the enhancements, where did it all go wrong? Can we not be confident with small breasts, can we not be confident with scars, why can we not be confident with cellulite, why do our teeth have to be perfectly straight, our eyebrows even? And what kind of a message are we sending to the younger generation. Think how much social media is influencing our feelings towards the way that we look and there was a time when we didn’t even have mobile phone, young girls (and boys) today are victim to this from the day they are born.
I just feel saddened that we cannot just be as we are.

What I do know is, we have a duty to empower one another, globally.
I have been on a bit of a journey, most intensely in the past 3 years, of desperately trying to learn to love Rebecca exactly as she is, and though we should not be affected by the actions of others it is so hard to accept yourself when it seems every corner you turn, every ad you see, every person you speak with is trying to convince you that you just do not fit the bill – you are just not woman enough.

Truly what I have realised, is that who Rebecca is, is not the girl in the school pants and the football shirts. I did have to embrace being a woman a little more, embrace the divine feminine that lays inside of me.  its a process.  I started up some more self-love practices, that you can read about here, I study the history of women, I talk to more women, I spend time with more women, I seek to understand. What I have realised is that embracing my femininity does not mean changing the way that I look. It has been in recognising the power that being a woman brings.

I read recently, ‘female friends make you face your problems’. Girls always know what is going on for you, we are a collective power, our intuition means that we cannot hide our feelings from one another. We help each other heal, we help each other grow. Maybe, avoiding women, I was avoiding myself. I was not ready to heal, I was not ready to embrace my true power and purpose.
If I was to define what femininity means to me, what it truly means to be a woman. To be a woman is to recognise your true divinity, to recognise that are a CREATOR of life, that you feel and love so very deeply, because you were born with an inherent innate desire to heal the world and you were given the tools to do it. Femininity is empowering other females, femininity is empowering other men, to be a woman is to educate ourselves, to educate others. To be a woman is to recognise that sensitivity is a beautiful thing, that your empathy can heal others and heal yourself. To be a woman is to be unapologetically you, to embrace all that you are, and love all that you are and most of all to love and support all the other females (and males) around you, females of all species.

Within ALL of us, male and female alike, lies a dormant shakti energy that is awaiting her awakening, she has been sleeping too long. We are the divine, we give life ladies, we empower, WE ARE EMPOWERED. It is time to rise.
What does it mean to be a woman? To be all that you are, to be you – nothing more nothing less.
Do not ever doubt yourself! and don’t judge a book by their eyebrows…
Eternal love always,

Magical Detox

Magic Detox

I made a huge proclamation at the beginning of this year to go raw for the first 3 months of 2018.  Of course, it lasted about a week.  Like almost everything, everyone goes through the same right? You make a big decision that you are going to develop these new habits, eat better, smile more, do more  yoga, walk more, run, but life just gets in the way. 

Embarking on a detox can be considered as a fad and often is misused as a way of weight loss.  Though weight loss is often a by-product, it is a healing process that has much more depth than just shedding a few pounds.  Our bodies are in a constant ongoing detox, by consciously eliminating certain toxic habits and foods from our lifestyles and diets we clear the way for the natural detoxification to have an easier task and restore the bodies natural healing abilities.

For me, having never had any formal training in nutrition, I like to eat intuitively.  Lets face it, we shouldn’t really have to read books to understand what our bodies need *Note I am not discrediting the work of nutritionists*, it is the deep disconnect from ourselves that has led us to become malnourished.  Over the years as me and my body have gotten to know each other better my perception of what is good for me has become clear.  My body is aware of what makes it feel good and what does not.  This includes a wide variety of things, nutrition goes beyond just the food that we eat.  Because of this and a deep desire to end animal cruelty, I currently eat a whole food plant-based diet.  It works for me.  Most of what I eat is raw, though I am inconsistent.  Since arriving back from India, I have fallen back into some bad habits drinking coffee, eating biscuits, undereating, overeating and eating too much late at night, eating an unreasonable amount of chocolate.  When my eating habits become a little erratic, it is normally when my schedule has also become erratic, suddenly I am forgetting everything, losing everything, life just seems to get a little out of hand.  It is like all the simplest things in life, like eating and sleeping become some dreadfully difficult task. 

We all know that good habits require consistency.  Since I walked more consciously on my life path, my only ever intention has been to raise my energy levels and vibration, to move on a higher frequency and to spread more love.  That is why I practice yoga every day because on the days I do not my prana (vital energy) gets less, that is why I eat foods high with prana because on the days I do not, I vibrate a little lower, I conduct a little less electricity, I fall into a lower space.  When I fall into a lower space how can I expect to uplift and move those around me?

I am hoping to give you an insight into why I like to move into certain disciplines and why statements like ‘if you want the cake just have the cake’ are not always applicable in our lives.  And I am not just talking about cake.  Some people do not agree with fasting, or with being vegan, that’s cool – you do you.  For me I have experienced the power of these things, I know how clear my brain feels, how well my body functions, and the deep clarity in my soul. 

Where are you going with this Beck?

Detoxing encourages a shift, detoxing supports a shift. I am ready for a shift, for clearing the path to new ideas and creating space for movement and growth in my life. 

Being that it was the beginning of lent yesterday and today is a new moon, I have decided to embark on a 40 day detox.  A detox not only within the foods that I am eating but also a life cleanse.  For as long as I can remember (and I cannot remember much), I have been disorganised and forgetful – that’s just Beck.  I also used to be lazy and unfit, that was just Beck.  If there is one thing that I have become aware of over the past 5 years it is that at any time we can recreate ourselves, stop rewriting bad habits back into your story.  If I want to be Beck who is always on time, super-efficient and has a great memory and always has her meals prepared, then I can be that Beck right? If I want to be the Beck that embraces each and every part of herself and never for a second doubts herself, I can also be that Beck right? If I want to help other human beings to also recognise their power I guess it is mandatory that I connect with my own. 

We shall see …

What will this detox mean?

On a dietary level:

Foods avoided

Sugar, Caffeine, Alcohol, wheat, anything processed, soy based products etc. 

(obviously meat and dairy but that goes without saying)

Foods eaten

Fruit, Vegetables, Legumes, Nuts (limited), Seeds, Herbal teas, A lot of water

What will my days look like?

I wake up at 4.30 and meditate and then I teach from 6-8am, 8-10 I practice.  90% Raw foods, a lot of water, a lot of yoga, I have recently started training twice a week too.  My first food of the day will be a juice or a smoothie and I will be eating between the hours of 10 and 6, fasting on Sundays. Doesn’t this sound fun?

Alongside all of this I will be incorporating a daily meditation 15-30 minutes per day, this detox is 90% for my mind, right now I am seeking some clarity for where to move forward in life, I guess at a crossroads looking for some answers and I know those answers are not at the bottom of a rich tea soaked cup of tea or a bottomless pit of odd socks.

There will be a variety of practices that I will be including, the plan is not set out as such, the inner voice will send me some guidance I guess.  I shall make sure to keep you updated with all cleansing practices.

Do you feel like you need a clearer mind? A reset?

I would love for you to join me.  I will offer as much support and advice as I can, like I said I am no expert – just your average little human trying to be a magical light being. 

Lets strip back the mess and get back to being magical.

Eternal love.


Talk Less, Listen more


There is a person in every person’s life who they know they can seek out for advice, that one person who will always uplift you and help you to understand yourself better.  I have people like this in my life.  It appears that certain humans have a skill that enables you to open and feel comfortable in what you are saying, they have a strong understanding about what you are speaking on and give you the ear that you need at that time. 

When I considered all the traits these people have I realised, it is listening skills – the ability to keep mouths closed and ears open, it is creating a space for a person to hear themselves.

When people come to us to talk, I would say 9.5/10 we will always reflect to that person a situation of our own.  ‘That exactly what it was like with my friend so and so, and this is what I did.’ What we forget though, is that no two situations are ever the same.  Though it is a natural way to reply by associating something to our own lives, we must remember that it is not our own lives. 

When you begin to listen, really begin to listen, it becomes more than just the persons words.  Look in to their eyes when they speak, see their body language, feel their energy, listen to their heart.  Really the words and sounds are barely half of it.  Like when a person tells you a lie, yet you know it is a lie – because you did not listen only to the words coming from them. 

We have become so disconnected from our true communication that we have this requirement to make sound, to try to have people understand how we feel. We are so engulfed in constant contact, that real communication is lost.  Nobody is really listening, everybody is just waiting to reply. 

When we really begin to listen, we create a space for a person to be able to express themselves, usually what you will see unfold before you is this person will talk themselves through the answers they need. 

I have acknowledged a need to listen more, not only to others but to myself.

So how can we become better listeners?

1.        Be quiet, tune in truly hear the person.

2.       Do not interrupt (this is my worst habit). When we interrupt, we give off the impression of being impatient or waiting to reply, hold onto your thoughts until the person is done. 

3.       Make eye contact, a lot of communication is lost when we do not look into a persons eyes, the eyes are the windows to the souls, you will ‘hear’ a lot more through eye contact than you will from words.

4.       Give an acknowledgement that you have understood what the person has said by replaying the situation, without including opinion or personal experiences.

5.       Give your full attention, how often have you been on your phone while talking and said ‘I am listening, just finishing this text’.  

6.       Be open minded, try to not attach your personal opinions to the persons life.  Step into their shoes for the period of the conversation, live their story. 

7.       Let questions be minimal and only to allow a deeper understanding.  

8.       Allow time for silence, sometimes after a person has spoken, that time of silence will allow the answer to come.

9.       Do not be in a rush.

10.   Try to not let your reactions be shown on your face, keep a calm and friendly attentive face.

These 10 steps can also be applied when listening to your own thoughts. 

Happy listening, happy learning,

Beck <3


Book Review: The Hidden Messages in Water

The Hidden Messages in Water a review.

Understanding the fact that we are essentially water is the key to uncovering the mysteries of the universe’

I am forever being asked for book recommendations, this will be now my first book of recommendation.  It made my heart very happy.  You will never look at water in the same way.  Hydration has taken a whole new definition.

Masaru Emoto, the author, is a Japanese scientist who has discovered that water molecules are affected by our thoughts, words and feelings.  What Dr Emoto has done is taken photographs of water crystals after being shown different words, played music, he has also taken various types of water from sacred places, basic tap water in cities etc.  There are a vast array of photographs and fascinating crystal formations.  Water is the most abundant substance in our bodies, thus this is essentially photographic evidence of the effects of thoughts words and feelings on ourselves.

‘all things vibrate, and they vibrate at their own frequencies.  When you understand this then you will significantly broaden your understanding of the universe’

At the beginning of the year a friend recommended that I start drinking my water out of a glass container, under the premise of ‘try it see how much nicer it tastes’.  I can understand things much better through experience.  I did, and it did taste nicer.  After reading this book, I now keep a rose quartz crystal inside of my water and I place the glass jar on top of one of the crystal formations in the book, the one that was formed after being shown the words ‘love and gratitude’.  Even if the picture and the crystal is having no impact on the water, just the fact that I am thinking that it will is going to start changing its structure.  I have never appreciated water more in my life, and being a water sign – I have always had a deep love for water.  I feel relaxed when I am close to water, and somewhat claustrophobic when I am not.

“What I am actually trying to say is that when you drink water with a feeling of gratitude,

the waters itself is physically different than when you drink the water with clouded feelings in your soul.

Our emotions and feelings have an effect on the world movement by movement.

If you send out words and images of creativity, then you will be contributing to the creation of a beautiful world.

However emitting messages of destruction, you contribute to the destruction of the universe.

If you become aware of this, you will not longer be able to speak words of anger to those around you or blame others for your own mistakes and weaknesses.

You have the capacity to change the world within a moment.

All you must do is make a simple choice.  Are you going to choose a world of love and gratitude of a world filled with discontent and impoverishment?”

My first true appreciation for water and its impact on my physical body was when I was completing my first TTC in Mumbai, it ended in April which is a ridiculously hot time in India sometimes reaching 40+ degrees and we were practicing yoga for ¾ hours a day.  With this obviously comes a lot of sweating.  I went through this weird time, where I was constantly exhausted, I felt strangely emotional, just wanted to cry all the time, with no reason, my joints were aching, and everything felt like such an effort.  I went to my teacher and told him about the joint pain his reply: ‘Rebecca you are dehydrated’.  This had me thinking: What does it really mean to be dehydrated? If it was impacting not only my physical body but also my emotional state? From that day I was never without a bottle of water in my hand, I must have been drinking around 6 litres of water a day, and my energy changed completely.  I had a deeper appreciation for this magical fluid from that day.

Like everything in life, we forget the importance of things.  When we have something in abundance, when something is just a daily part of our lives, whether that be food, our parents, our partners or our water – we forget to appreciate it, we forget to extend love, to extend gratitude, we forget how magical it is, we forget its life-giving abilities.

This book will help you to remember.  I smiled the whole way through reading it.

An interesting observation I have made too, I am currently completing another teacher training course in India, and have nowhere near the same requirement for intake of water.  I guess, quality is better than quantity.  I am hydrated, physically, emotionally and spiritually.

Next big consciousness thing: Is your soul hydrated through?

Many self-help/ spiritual books, make many statements but unless you have experienced the message that they are trying to give it can be hard to understand.  Dr Emoto provides us with clear photographic evidence of the power and existence of our consciousness and the ability of vibrations to change the world.

‘I wanted as many people as possible to hear the message that water has for us’ – just trying to help my Japanese brother out with this review.

In short – it will make your heart happy, happy reading, happy hydration. <3

You can buy the book here.






What is love? What are the immediate thoughts that flood your mind when asked this question?

Let me offer you this answer: Love is everything.

Love is oxygen for the soul, without it we will literally suffocate.

I remember writing something when I was about 17 – I guess it was an unpublished blog post.  It was about love – and my disbelief in it.

How sad.

We have moved on since then. (me and my heart)

Each time I have attempted to write this, I wished to share the story behind how I came to accept this truth. It was turning out to be an auto-biography – as it has pretty much taken me all my humble short 25 years to accept. Or to remember the meaning of life.  How blessed I am to have remembered so early.

3 years back, my friend Michelle told me ‘Rebecca the meaning of life is love’.  I said, ‘no Michelle you think that the meaning of life is love.’

My understanding was different then.  I was different then.

I have I suppose always had a misunderstanding of love, who hasn’t though? If I was to ask what is love, to a wide variety of people across the globe there is not a doubt in my mind that I would have pages of different descriptions, in attempt to give meaning to this power felt by so many.  We are limited by the English language in that we use the word love to describe so many things.  Personally I ‘fall in love’ once a week, it is draining I must say.  We each have different understandings of the word love.  It has so many uses that it takes away from the word. That was probably my initial problem when I had this conversation first with Michelle, I had a certain perception of love.  I want you to forget about the word though, forget about any limitations you feel you have by way of expressing yourself.  If I asked you rather than what is love? Can you remember when you have felt love, embody that feeling right now!

It is everything, right?

This this year, I was suffering with a pain in my chest – not like a heart attack pain, more of a spiritual pain manifesting itself in a breath taking, immobilising manner.  It has been experienced throughout my life, I think this year I just became more aware of it, with becoming more self aware, it seemed to stop me in my tracks and zap all the oxygen from my lungs, often it would be followed by tears.  With this came a certain feeling of emptiness, and a struggle for knowing what is the point of it all. They call it anxiety I think, in the medical realms.  We ain’t down with the medical lingo though.

I carried with me an empty feeling for a long time, on a day to day functioning I was fine, by observance of the normal eye.  I was just lost, I would be walking through what felt like bizarre meaningless time warp.  Like my feet were moving but was I going anywhere?  I had moved into this beautiful world of yoga and I had what felt like the most blessed life, where was this coming from? There was an element of guilt I feel.  I felt like everywhere I looked I saw only sadness. Some people would call me an empath, again something I have only really begun to understand this year.  We empaths, feel the sadness of others very deeply, it is a feeling sort of like wanting to give the whole world a hug.  Many people say it is a burden.  I do not feel that it is a burden for I feel that it has helped me to understand the world and to understand people.  Though it also brought confusion.  I see heartbreak and loss, I see pain and suffering, I see homelessness and war, I see so much injustice, I see hurt – in so many human’s eyes, what I see most of all is this same empty feeling in me, I recognise it in other people.  I know that, we are all a little lost.

Does this happen to you? Take this empath test : I found doing it quite insightful ❤️ http://www.empathtest.com

Why is there so much pain and hate in the world? You must have heard this theory that ‘there is no cold, only absence of heat.  In the same way, ‘there is no hate, only absence of love.’ We are absent of love, disconnected from our hearts.

Something happened to me a couple of months ago, I was walking through this alleyway, on my way to the Yoga Studio, I always walk through the same alleyway – it smells like wee, it has lots of litter and I get a sense that somebody has died in there. quite a magical setting.  On this fine day as I was walking through this scenic, sense satisfying alley way – I was listening to this album and having the general existential thoughts that I have on a regular basis and suddenly I got this feeling in my chest, it wasn’t the pain. I stopped mid walking feeling this warm feeling across my chest – my heart was opening.  I got a huge smile on my face, my best point of reference would be when I have been romantically in love, except that – there was nobody else, only me and the wee smelling alleyway. Every cell in my body was happy, the emptiness left – I was full.

When I arrived at the studio, my friend said to me ‘my god you are very cheery today’ I replied, ‘I think I might be enlightened’.  That was of course a joke, though there was some insight.

This state has not remained constant, though I understand now that when the pain is there and not the warmth, my heart is communicating with me to tell me something isn’t right.  I speak with my heart regularly and I seek the answers that she is giving me.

So what is falling in love all about then? I often think when we have these experiences of being ‘in love’ is that they are merely an insight into how fantastic we can feel, what we do is assume that it is this person that has given us this feeling and not that actually we have tapped into our true being.

I still do feel the pain of others and I still see so much sadness in the world. I still experience hurt in my heart. I would not be human if I did not.

We cannot give everybody a hug, we cannot always make every human being experience warmth in their chest .

What I have realised that we can do, is live in love.  That when there are hurt people send them love, radiate love in the best way that we can. That is why I teach yoga you see …

Let our hearts be open. Let the message of love be spread.

It may all seem a little cliché and maybe not practical. It is though, when you start to speak from your heart, when you act from your heart, when you live from your heart – all that you will manifest will be for the greater good, it is a universal law.


See when you begin to literally project love from your heart, you create an electromagnetic field around you, this will be felt by other people, this will influence other people, others will feel the love from you. You can read more about this here https://www.heartmath.org/articles-of-the-heart/science-of-the-heart/the-energetic-heart-is-unfolding/

I was told recently that our hearts are sometimes stupid, I disagreed, our hearts are the most intelligent things that we have, it is our minds that often lack the required knowledge to get through life.  When we become disconnected, we lack empathy, our intuition is not clear, compassion is lacking in our lives. Our hearts, they know all that there is to know.  Only we are not listening.

Reconnect with yourself, though we must remember that our true being is love, as we see so often, it starts with you.  The love of self.  This is the love that radiates powerfully. Fill your vessel first so that you may fill the cups of many others.

I do not know where you will be when you read this, or in which way you will perceive it, what I do know is that this message has come to you for a reason – to make you think and to reconnect with the love inside of yourself.  I hope that maybe your heart will hear my heart, just like Michelle spoke to my heart that day.  I hope that you can learn the power in not only offering others a smile but in offering a smile to yourself.

Lose some weight from your heart, may it be like a feather.

Yours truly,


PS, please listen to the song <3

Love is like that emotional spiritual thing inside that you cant define.

From afar it looks like a danger sign but as you get closer its almost like you’re looking into angels eyes.

Because they make you forget about everything that ever hurt you and the pain inside.

And smile as bright as the sunshine even though it may rain at times.

Love is sacred and love is sanctified.

It is what bought peace to the world in ancient times.

Love is the same energy that created the universe and paints the sky.

Love is the reason that birds sing at night and angels fly.

Love is intellectual conversations that make our brain collide.

Love can really make you go insane at times.

Love  is the thing inside that makes anger die.

Love told me to love myself and then I became sublime.

Love even gave life to Frankenstein. 

Love just cant be explained at times.

Love is this and every thing that I cant describe.

Love is everything.

Everything is love.




Indian Diaries: Sometimes small talk can be big talk.

Since arriving here, I have been a bit of a recluse.  Intentionally.  I think. 

I have not had a full conversation with anybody. Anybody who has tried, has received a friendly but short reply. 

I am not really into small talk.

I haven’t even called my mum (sorry mum). *I have now*

That was until I met John.

Just to clear up here, John is old enough to be my dad, this is merely a friendly interaction.

John sparked a conversation from me via his somewhat manc union sounding accent. (for anybody not from England, this is a specific accent from Manchester – a ‘rival’ city of Liverpool).

‘Where are you from’ Said I.

‘A village’ said John.

‘A village?’ I repeated, confused.
‘Yeah, a village’ – said John

‘Where are you fr.. ?’ John stopped mid sentence.  ‘Oh I know where you’re from’

we’re not brought up to like each other us two are we’ continued John.

‘I don’t believe we are.’ I replied.

This was all said in jest of course.

‘me dad is from Liverpool like so I reckon I’m a bit of a scouser’

I smiled.

No I’m serious like’ said John.

That was our first conversation, John and I have had a few small conversations since this first meeting.

Today I was sat having my dinner.

I heard John, he was trying to order a chai with ginger in it.

John to the Indian staff – Ragoo who barely speaks any English.

‘can I av a cupa tha chai tea please wi ginger init’

Ragoo was clearly confused.

John ‘yeno that chai bu wi a birra ginger in it’

Ragoo, still confused ‘ginger lemon honey?’

It went on like this for a while until they made the order.

John walks in.

John gave me an eye roll, so did Ragoo.

This made me smile.

He looked at me a couple of times then said ‘oh you are the girl from Liverpool, you look different with your hair down.’

‘I listened to that, ‘you’ll never walk alone’ this morning’, – makes me cry, not every time like’ John shared.

The conversation continued and John told me about his children.

He stopped and said ‘what about you, have you got any kids?

I replied in defence ‘no I am only 25’

‘I suppose that is quite young like’. though John addressed that I could quite easily mathematically have several children. 

Basically, John makes random funny statements.

Or john makes random statements that come out funny.

He was talking to me today about teas that can aid in sleep.

‘you can get tulsi and velerium apparently’

Then he repeats ‘velerium, is it velerium?’

John looks to me for some clarity.

I replied ‘Valium?’

‘Tulsi and Valium tea’

Then we both laughed a lot.

*still not sure what the tea is he was referring to*

Two other Indian girls came into the room, john introduced them to me and then as he went to introduce me to them, we suddenly realised we had not exchanged names.

‘what is your name ?’ he said

‘Rebecca’ I replied. ‘What’s yours?’


I told john later in the conversation, ‘you know John – I haven’t had this much of a lengthy conversation with anybody since arriving here.’  Note: john and i’s conversation was not especially lengthy either.  I told him, ‘I cannot work out if I am antisocial or shy.’

He said, ‘probably just a bi of a introvert’.

John continued, ‘I’m a bi of an introvert sometimes, though, when you meet new people you play a role don’t ya.  I always set this role of talking a lot and being funny, and after a while I think – effing hell how do I get out of this role?’

He said ‘sometimes though I just spend that much time alone that I really don’t want to talk to anyone’.  

I said to John, ‘I know what you mean, though I was only thinking today that I haven’t laughed since I arrived here, and I just did.’

‘that’s got to be a good thing then hasn’t it’ John replied.

John made me laugh and sparked a thought in my mind of how we all chose to take on certain roles in life, that can be difficult to come out of.  

Sometimes small talk can be big talk.

Food for thought …

How many times have you laughed today?

How many roles have you taken on that you would like to move out of?

Reflect on this <3

Poetry: A World Without Words

A World Without Words.

A world where mouths stay closed, opened only for eating,

Eye contact only, in your works meeting,

Saying I love you with the wink of an eye,

Hugging and kissing to say goodbye,

A touch from your hands to show your affection,

Telepathically speaking with your reflection,

Fine-tuned communication,

Through frequencies and waves,

Naturally attracting, those on the same page,

A world without words, where your actions define you,

A world without words, where frequencies surround you,

No misunderstanding, of ‘what do you mean?’

Only moving through life in some higher consciousness dream.

Self Love Practices

Self Love Practices.

In life, I have spent a lot of time hating myself, and when I say hating I truly mean hating.

Me, myself and I have had a very turbulent relationship.

We have said horrible and hurtful things to each other, we have not treated our self with respect, we have not known love.

Don’t feel bad for me, we cool now.

This will be an ongoing theme in my posts and blogs, the main reason being – I know that I am not alone in this.  I am after all, another you.  I recognise this trait in so many people, I see this lack of love for oneself.  Right now, I will not divulge too deeply into the ins and outs of this, I will just say that I am growing now and my main passion in life is to help you to do the same.

To recognise your true beauty, your true SELF, to recognise that you are love itself.

The journey isn’t all that easy darlings, but it is much much easier that waking up and feeling uncomfortable in your own skin every single day.  What I have found is there are a hell of a lot of statements telling you to love yourself, nothing though is teaching us how.

That is all I will say for now, below I am sharing some self-love practices that I personally use, think of it as relationship counselling with yourself. 

Enjoy the journey <3

Ten self love practices:

1.       Start practicing yoga.  You all knew I was going to say that right?  Yoga is without a doubt in my mind the biggest catalyst for self-love, self-healing and a raise in consciousness.  Yoga is about transformation, about really getting to know yourself.  Honestly this is one of those things that it doesn’t matter how much I tell you the benefits, it will not be until you truly experience it in your own practice that it will all begin to make sense.  Every single class is a journey, even the classes you hate, every single practice is a journey, even the ones you skip.  Yoga works on so many levels, when we talk about the physical practices, it enables you to recognise your bodies abilities and your minds abilities to help you get there.  The biggest thing yoga gives you, in what-ever way you chose to practice it, is a connection with the self – once you make this connection, you cannot help but to love your magical little self.

2.       Go vegan.  Okay you all knew I was going to say that too right? Seriously though, cut out meat – it is fuelled with so much negativity that it is only going to inflict negativity onto your own body and mind.  This is a process, let us just start for now with eat more vegetables, eat more fruits.  Do some research into plant based diets, slowly start to make the transformation. Fruits and vegetables are filled with natural mood enhancers      

3. Read. Read. Read.  Read books, read articles, read blogs, keep your mind focused on positive things.  Read books that are going to expand your mind. Educate yourself to be more empowered. 

4.       Dance.  Put music on in your room and just dance, learn to express yourself.  If you are anything like me this expression of oneself will be behind closed doors, one day I will take it outside though.  Dancing is a movement and especially when you do it in your room you have no pressures around you of how you are supposed to look or following a routine.  Throw in a bit of singing too.


5.       Stop going out with boys/girls that are mean to you.  I am not really down with the ‘nobody can love you until you love yourself’.  I think this is quite detrimental to oneself.  It makes sense yes, I understand where the concept is coming from but let us just forget about that.  It is not your fault if a partner is not nice to you, that just where that person is at.  It is your responsibility however to recognise that this person is not enhancing your life and you need to move on.  Cut the opposite sex out for a while, it will not kill you. I am speaking to the singles here – they my homies. If you are in a relationship the same applies, try not to be dependent upon your partner. Which brings me to my next point.

6.       Do things alone, go the cinema, go to India, go the park, go in the next room.  Go where ever you need to go to have a little bit of solitude, quite often the emotions we are feeling are not even our own but created by the energies of those around us.  Have a little me time.

7.       Journal.  Write.  Honestly it does not matter what you are writing, just write.  Get a diary, write as soon as you wake up or before you go to bed.  You will start to understand yourself more through this practice.

8.       Mirror talks.  Look in the mirror and just say nice things to yourself, this is probably one of the hardest.  I often go between ‘you are so beautiful’ and ‘no you are not beck why the eff are you doing this’, and then I repeat it again, until eventually normally I just laugh at myself, which is a form of love right?

9.       Smile more.  I have never been a big smiler, in fact if you know me well I still don’t think I really am, I am working on it though.  I remember when I first ever taught a yoga class, and seeing everybody’s smiling faces looking at me was honestly one of the most magical moments in my life.  There is not one person in the world who does not look better when they are truly smiling from the heart, your smile is an extension of your soul, so when you smile it is your soul that people see, not your teeth or the way your nose looks weird. 

10.   What to write for ten, be easy with yourself beautiful people.  Sleep more, do more things that you enjoy.  Try to not put too much pressure onto yourself, I have to repeat that – do not put pressure onto yourself.  Avoid stress, where possible.  Like I said it’s a process, if one day you wake up and you think ‘okay I don’t love myself today’ (or some negative thoughts) do one of the practices, one of my favourites is to just close my eyes and smile for five minutes.  Create a positive environment for yourself I know it seems so cliché but it is true, unfollow anybody who is not having a positive impact in your life, both on social media and in real life, stop watching TV, as I am writing point number ten so many more things are coming to me! I think though this will summarise, stop doing things that don’t make you feel good about yourself.  This doesn’t mean to say that for every waking moment of your life you are going to feel amazing, there will be ups and downs, create an environment where there are more ups than downs. 

 Work hard at your relationship with yourself. Be gentle. Be kind. Forgive yourself. You are beautiful. You are love.  Do yoga 😉

Poetry: If your life story started with once upon a time . . .

If your life story started with once upon a time,

would you go back to the start and rewrite the first line,

Which parts of your life would remain the same,

What dramas would you erase under your name?

If your life was a fairy-tale narrated by you,

Would you be Cinderella, would you find your missing shoe?

What captivating title would you give to each chapter,

Would you write in a happily ever after?

Would your prince charming ride in on a white horse?

Or collide with you instantly with a message from source?

Tell me would you write about all the nights you have cried?

About the overcome battles between you and your mind?

How many times would you be heart-broken?

In your own story, would your heart always be open.

Maybe you would write it with only good times,

Laughter and smiles though, don’t always make for good rhymes,

Your life is your story – your fairy-tale book,

You can be Peter, or you can be hook,

You can write yourself as the beautiful princess,

Or you can forever choose to be – the Damsel in Distress,

You are the Author, the story is entirely your choice,

You are the main character – your soul is the narrators voice.

So, if your life story started with once upon a time – tell me, would you go back to the start and rewrite the first line?