LOVE

LOVE

What is love? What are the immediate thoughts that flood your mind when asked this question?

Let me offer you this answer: Love is everything.

Love is oxygen for the soul, without it we will literally suffocate.

I remember writing something when I was about 17 – I guess it was an unpublished blog post.  It was about love – and my disbelief in it.

How sad.

We have moved on since then. (me and my heart)

Each time I have attempted to write this, I wished to share the story behind how I came to accept this truth. It was turning out to be an auto-biography – as it has pretty much taken me all my humble short 25 years to accept. Or to remember the meaning of life.  How blessed I am to have remembered so early.

3 years back, my friend Michelle told me ‘Rebecca the meaning of life is love’.  I said, ‘no Michelle you think that the meaning of life is love.’

My understanding was different then.  I was different then.

I have I suppose always had a misunderstanding of love, who hasn’t though? If I was to ask what is love, to a wide variety of people across the globe there is not a doubt in my mind that I would have pages of different descriptions, in attempt to give meaning to this power felt by so many.  We are limited by the English language in that we use the word love to describe so many things.  Personally I ‘fall in love’ once a week, it is draining I must say.  We each have different understandings of the word love.  It has so many uses that it takes away from the word. That was probably my initial problem when I had this conversation first with Michelle, I had a certain perception of love.  I want you to forget about the word though, forget about any limitations you feel you have by way of expressing yourself.  If I asked you rather than what is love? Can you remember when you have felt love, embody that feeling right now!

It is everything, right?

This this year, I was suffering with a pain in my chest – not like a heart attack pain, more of a spiritual pain manifesting itself in a breath taking, immobilising manner.  It has been experienced throughout my life, I think this year I just became more aware of it, with becoming more self aware, it seemed to stop me in my tracks and zap all the oxygen from my lungs, often it would be followed by tears.  With this came a certain feeling of emptiness, and a struggle for knowing what is the point of it all. They call it anxiety I think, in the medical realms.  We ain’t down with the medical lingo though.

I carried with me an empty feeling for a long time, on a day to day functioning I was fine, by observance of the normal eye.  I was just lost, I would be walking through what felt like bizarre meaningless time warp.  Like my feet were moving but was I going anywhere?  I had moved into this beautiful world of yoga and I had what felt like the most blessed life, where was this coming from? There was an element of guilt I feel.  I felt like everywhere I looked I saw only sadness. Some people would call me an empath, again something I have only really begun to understand this year.  We empaths, feel the sadness of others very deeply, it is a feeling sort of like wanting to give the whole world a hug.  Many people say it is a burden.  I do not feel that it is a burden for I feel that it has helped me to understand the world and to understand people.  Though it also brought confusion.  I see heartbreak and loss, I see pain and suffering, I see homelessness and war, I see so much injustice, I see hurt – in so many human’s eyes, what I see most of all is this same empty feeling in me, I recognise it in other people.  I know that, we are all a little lost.

Does this happen to you? Take this empath test : I found doing it quite insightful ❤️ http://www.empathtest.com

Why is there so much pain and hate in the world? You must have heard this theory that ‘there is no cold, only absence of heat.  In the same way, ‘there is no hate, only absence of love.’ We are absent of love, disconnected from our hearts.

Something happened to me a couple of months ago, I was walking through this alleyway, on my way to the Yoga Studio, I always walk through the same alleyway – it smells like wee, it has lots of litter and I get a sense that somebody has died in there. quite a magical setting.  On this fine day as I was walking through this scenic, sense satisfying alley way – I was listening to this album and having the general existential thoughts that I have on a regular basis and suddenly I got this feeling in my chest, it wasn’t the pain. I stopped mid walking feeling this warm feeling across my chest – my heart was opening.  I got a huge smile on my face, my best point of reference would be when I have been romantically in love, except that – there was nobody else, only me and the wee smelling alleyway. Every cell in my body was happy, the emptiness left – I was full.

When I arrived at the studio, my friend said to me ‘my god you are very cheery today’ I replied, ‘I think I might be enlightened’.  That was of course a joke, though there was some insight.

This state has not remained constant, though I understand now that when the pain is there and not the warmth, my heart is communicating with me to tell me something isn’t right.  I speak with my heart regularly and I seek the answers that she is giving me.

So what is falling in love all about then? I often think when we have these experiences of being ‘in love’ is that they are merely an insight into how fantastic we can feel, what we do is assume that it is this person that has given us this feeling and not that actually we have tapped into our true being.

I still do feel the pain of others and I still see so much sadness in the world. I still experience hurt in my heart. I would not be human if I did not.

We cannot give everybody a hug, we cannot always make every human being experience warmth in their chest .

What I have realised that we can do, is live in love.  That when there are hurt people send them love, radiate love in the best way that we can. That is why I teach yoga you see …

Let our hearts be open. Let the message of love be spread.

It may all seem a little cliché and maybe not practical. It is though, when you start to speak from your heart, when you act from your heart, when you live from your heart – all that you will manifest will be for the greater good, it is a universal law.

IT IS THE UNIVERSAL LAW.

See when you begin to literally project love from your heart, you create an electromagnetic field around you, this will be felt by other people, this will influence other people, others will feel the love from you. You can read more about this here https://www.heartmath.org/articles-of-the-heart/science-of-the-heart/the-energetic-heart-is-unfolding/

I was told recently that our hearts are sometimes stupid, I disagreed, our hearts are the most intelligent things that we have, it is our minds that often lack the required knowledge to get through life.  When we become disconnected, we lack empathy, our intuition is not clear, compassion is lacking in our lives. Our hearts, they know all that there is to know.  Only we are not listening.

Reconnect with yourself, though we must remember that our true being is love, as we see so often, it starts with you.  The love of self.  This is the love that radiates powerfully. Fill your vessel first so that you may fill the cups of many others.

I do not know where you will be when you read this, or in which way you will perceive it, what I do know is that this message has come to you for a reason – to make you think and to reconnect with the love inside of yourself.  I hope that maybe your heart will hear my heart, just like Michelle spoke to my heart that day.  I hope that you can learn the power in not only offering others a smile but in offering a smile to yourself.

Lose some weight from your heart, may it be like a feather.

Yours truly,

Beck.

PS, please listen to the song <3

Love is like that emotional spiritual thing inside that you cant define.

From afar it looks like a danger sign but as you get closer its almost like you’re looking into angels eyes.

Because they make you forget about everything that ever hurt you and the pain inside.

And smile as bright as the sunshine even though it may rain at times.

Love is sacred and love is sanctified.

It is what bought peace to the world in ancient times.

Love is the same energy that created the universe and paints the sky.

Love is the reason that birds sing at night and angels fly.

Love is intellectual conversations that make our brain collide.

Love can really make you go insane at times.

Love  is the thing inside that makes anger die.

Love told me to love myself and then I became sublime.

Love even gave life to Frankenstein. 

Love just cant be explained at times.

Love is this and every thing that I cant describe.

Love is everything.

Everything is love.

Londrelle

 

 

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